I don't like resolutions.
I never bother, usually. There is the Negative resolution - no more etc etc, but why would denial make me a better person?
And the Postive resolution. If perhaps i said... this year i will have more sex, better sex, more fun even, well then it makes it a task, a goal, a box to be ticked. i don't want that, i want it to happen; i believe it will, but it's not a resolution.
For the record, yes, the sex got better and better, and i believe it shall continue. Bittersweet blogging tapped into my inner sex and i shall never relinquish that knowledge, nor desist from exploring the possibilities of cunny and cock.
I still have the love of the man who was my lover back then. It is a different sort of love, just as sustaining (if not more so) and not as troubling. The guilt has faded and, significantly, so has the pleasure of shame ... not that i am adverse to an occasional bout of prostrating discipline.
For the record, yes, the sex got better and better, and i believe it shall continue. Bittersweet blogging tapped into my inner sex and i shall never relinquish that knowledge, nor desist from exploring the possibilities of cunny and cock.
I still have the love of the man who was my lover back then. It is a different sort of love, just as sustaining (if not more so) and not as troubling. The guilt has faded and, significantly, so has the pleasure of shame ... not that i am adverse to an occasional bout of prostrating discipline.
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I sort of miss some of the Bittersweet stuff.
Hope your new year brings all sorts of good things to you!
Oh Os .. so do i, but it was quite debilitating keeping up that intensity, and my life is quite different now (thankfully). It was an outlet for misery, after all, and nowadays i'm just too darn busy to wallow x
Crikey. Is it only four years? Feels like longer. Still, in internet terms, that's an aeon.
I miss the Bittersweet stuff a bit too. I always went away aroused and melancholy, which is a strange way to feel.
But the vibrancy and mischief of this place is always a joy. And, y'know, I've even tried some of the recipes. And it's wonderful that you seem happier now. If you don't mind me saying.
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